I am not sure when things changed. I am talking about me! Like a pelt of a snake, I shook off or rather ploughed myself; but all along I am that person and yet stealthily changing, both mentally and physically. I do remember being a child; as I used to take a shower with my sister or when my mother was smearing “kebe”(by product of milk used for hair) on my hair, and rubbing it with her hand against my hair. What about the school days, back in the kindergarten. You go to school just to have fun, play. At least what I thought.
Petit a petit, seasons change, trees shades leaves and I grow up. Life cycle! As it may look one night process, ironically that is the truth; if you ask me to account most of my life cycle, I wouldn’t: You live the same life over and over again, and you couldn’t say which come first or all together they are the same. Still I am talking about myself, if I mention “you”, then you will tell me finally if it works for you.
Back in high school, freshman, we seem to have had summer so different than we had before. It is as if we had been exposed to a different climate and all the sudden our growth has changed. Not physically actually but mentally. The girls began to search ways to be noticed or they felt this how it supposed to be now. We used to wear uniforms and the girls used to cut their dress above the normal size. They have to accentuate at least one part of their body. You tell me, girls? And boys we have got a new eyes during the summer, I thought this part of the body doesn’t change. I think that point was on one of our biology lesson back then. May be I misread it. Anyways we seem to look beyond what we see, and also began to observe changes on our bodies. Most Boys on a group goes on discussing about these things and girls. I am not saying the changes between boys and girls are different. Boys are usually busy with this new order: imagination.
Back in high school, freshman, we seem to have had summer so different than we had before. It is as if we had been exposed to a different climate and all the sudden our growth has changed. Not physically actually but mentally. The girls began to search ways to be noticed or they felt this how it supposed to be now. We used to wear uniforms and the girls used to cut their dress above the normal size. They have to accentuate at least one part of their body. You tell me, girls? And boys we have got a new eyes during the summer, I thought this part of the body doesn’t change. I think that point was on one of our biology lesson back then. May be I misread it. Anyways we seem to look beyond what we see, and also began to observe changes on our bodies. Most Boys on a group goes on discussing about these things and girls. I am not saying the changes between boys and girls are different. Boys are usually busy with this new order: imagination.
We are no more those children once played hide and seek, carry on the girls on our back as punishment and so on. Now, we are estranged from ourselves and our play mates. Some of us seem to shrink away, as a snail would shrink from being touched, with the closer presence of a girl on our side. We don’t know how to react.
Now we needed a new prologue, to mingle with each other. The girl you know since kindergarten and play with seems to affect you in some way. You be seated in a class or be with your friends during lunch break all you could think is to see her. If you are strong enough you will tell her how you feel. Otherwise, like me, you wouldn’t tell her for two years. Finally, you would say “maybe she isn’t meant for me”, not always true, you know that. How do you know if you don’t ask? The truth is you don’t know how to ask. I am not psychic and I am just telling you about myself.
Now we needed a new prologue, to mingle with each other. The girl you know since kindergarten and play with seems to affect you in some way. You be seated in a class or be with your friends during lunch break all you could think is to see her. If you are strong enough you will tell her how you feel. Otherwise, like me, you wouldn’t tell her for two years. Finally, you would say “maybe she isn’t meant for me”, not always true, you know that. How do you know if you don’t ask? The truth is you don’t know how to ask. I am not psychic and I am just telling you about myself.
Who are you going to trust and tell the truth, to help you? I usually resorted to my sisters. It may save you from that particular day disappointment but not all good enough to change reality.
How you viewed those insignificant but at the same time significant incidences with her? You may find her alone in the library, your eyes may make contact with her, or she pass in front of you. She even sits in front of you, in the class. Then you would say, some supernatural power force is telling me that we are supposed to be together. Ah! Foolish? With blessing from GOD, as I have imagined it; One day she stopped me only to ask me if I am in her class. May be she is playing with me? No, she is afraid to tell me her feelings. It never stop. Reason after reason; falling in love, imagination!
How you viewed those insignificant but at the same time significant incidences with her? You may find her alone in the library, your eyes may make contact with her, or she pass in front of you. She even sits in front of you, in the class. Then you would say, some supernatural power force is telling me that we are supposed to be together. Ah! Foolish? With blessing from GOD, as I have imagined it; One day she stopped me only to ask me if I am in her class. May be she is playing with me? No, she is afraid to tell me her feelings. It never stop. Reason after reason; falling in love, imagination!
Somehow you get over it. And finale attempt you try to catch up with what you have missed during this deep trance. Most likely falling grades would be your main priority. This may happen more than once, if you are like me.
I think now, you know. You are grown-ups and passed that age of innocence. My advice is giving priorities to school, if you are studying. Just always socialize as you do with your brothers and sisters; just have comfort in being with “Eve”. Don’t go out looking for a girl, just have friends. If she comes, just wait for the moments to settle and confess your feelings. She will say yes or no. Isn’t it, boys and girls?
I think now, you know. You are grown-ups and passed that age of innocence. My advice is giving priorities to school, if you are studying. Just always socialize as you do with your brothers and sisters; just have comfort in being with “Eve”. Don’t go out looking for a girl, just have friends. If she comes, just wait for the moments to settle and confess your feelings. She will say yes or no. Isn’t it, boys and girls?
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